I’m at my happiest (or close to it) when I’m solving a problem. When I get to turn my brain on to start solving something, I feel so ALIVE.
Sometimes the part before that – when I know there’s a problem but haven’t decided to solve it yet – fills me with fear. Fear that I’ll screw up or that I’ll fail. It’s a paralyzing, put it off at all costs, I’ll do anything not to think about it, kind of fear.
Why the disconnect? If I enjoy the “during” so much, why do I spend so much energy avoiding it? Why is the “before” so scary?
I’m still working on that. But I encourage you to find the thing that makes you feel alive. You probably take it for granted since it comes so naturally to you. You assume everyone else can do it too so you must not be special.
I’ll bet you that they can’t. And the few that can probably aren’t doing it often enough.
Once you’ve found your thing, see how often you keep yourself from enjoying it.